As day and days go bye, i notice that i am not who i used to be. that anger and hatred inside of me is waiting to burst out. But i know that i shul be cool and now here is my life story....
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
3/4 thru my first song and it is going quite well just waiting for my sis to learn the guitar and my bro to learn the drum...need to wait appx 2yr sia...tis yr my bro psle then nxt yr my sis psle...by time i tink i make album already sia...hehe just kidding Btw while writing tis song i couldnt help thinking bout something and decide to get it of my chest and write it here...All the info is true.
29 November 2006 was the day that you said yes to me and i couldnt imagine how happy i was But it didnt lasted long 16 March 2007, My dear grandfather passed away I was sad and partially depressed But that wasnt the end...
A week later, During the raining monday you decided that we should go our separate ways... Words couldnt describe my emotions It wasnt just a blow but 2 ppl part of my life is gone...
So in this post i would like to express thing that i nvr say b4 or watsoever Yea i admit that you werent the one that on the first day of school ppl go like " OMG! Whos That?" And i admit that i treated you like any other student Until sec 2....i began to take notice. And somehow u did get my number first b4 i get urs
I still rmb that u told me that i was very irritating toward you ( You shuld trust ur frens when they say that when a guy irritates u, means they like ya ) I still rmb almost everyday when i start the talking by asking u wat was that days hw and tease ur fav anime character almost everyday just so i could get ur attn But then last yr we took a slightly diff route and didnt get to see that beautiful face as much as i can and i rmb i took a glance whenever i can and whenever i pass ur classroom
I still rmb that time when we became night owls and began to chat during the nite... I still rmb exactly that on the first school dae after hari raya...i sneak into your class and smuggle sumting under ur table It was a card with music and pop ups, and in it was a pair of teal cat earring and my feeling towards you... That nite u told me to wait And wait i did For a month i waited patiently and yes u gave as an answer
looking back now...That 4 months was more of a nightmare than of a beutiful memory coz to me...our separation happens to be my worst failure yet And yes i may look normal at school but at the bottom of my black heart, i was crying...crying over my stupidity and such Why black heart? Coz i had convert to my other self Yes his name is Iceruff He exchanged love with hatred And sadness for anger
But during that 4 months I admit i was a fool I was afraid to do simple stuff such as holding ur hands, keeping u warm and kissing u goodbye But here is wat i have to say You were the first and hopefully go on to eternity and i didnt wanted to screw it all up I afraid all these thing that i didnt do would have cause our separation But now i relised that those sweet thing that i could have done could have save our relationship
but i did try my best to keep you happy rite? On that day u went to bp u tot i was merely tagging along actually i was looking for a present to buy for ur sweet 16 And eventually u pick up this book that u like And here i go BINGO! Rmb on 14 feb, 1 day just b4 ur sweet 16 I bought u 3 rose and i'm sure u knew what they symbolize
I feel that i was very pathetic, wasnt bcoz u decide to break this relationship but bcoz i let you go to easily Only a few smses to be exact I was left there w/o knowing where i went wrong
Now its already September and its been 7 month since our breakup But honestly despite knowing that we are no more together I often look behind to see if u were there in school if u were ok And when it was raining heavily, i sometime walk pass you into the ran towards home despite having an umbrella I feel dumb not coz i was walking w/o an umbrella but i couldnt be there to sent u home
Ppl who read this may say that i was so emo and that i could get another gurl but no You were the only one Yes words are merely words Some ppl may change gfs/bfs like they change shirts everyday But it isnt easy for me I was the faithful one
Even if you were wrong, u were alwaes correct in my eyes Even if there were pretty girls everywhere, you were the most beautiful one Even if u act immaturely, I didnt think you were stupid but laugh along with you and join in Even if i was left with the last girl on earth, I would still want you Even if you tink i was boring coz i keep talking bout studies, Is bcoz i dun wanna us to destroy your bright future
I wouldnt set high hopes for this If you read this, i would like to say i'm sorry and hope u will walk thru my doors once again If not, I hope god will lead her here..
The end
Iceruff Yaagami Shynobi was wandering here at 9/19/2007 03:07:00 PM.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
1. When was the last time you ran?: yesterday...up the stairs at school
2. Do ur jeans have rips, tears &holesin them?: If no hole how do you put ur legs in?
3. What book are u reading right now?: Other school exam papers...lol o lvl veri near leh
4. Is ur lipgloss poppin?: huh wat?
5. When was the last time u saw theperson you love?: everyday!
7. Can you dance?: Hell yea!
8. Do u get the full 8hrs of sleep anight?: nope
11. Think of all your EX. Wld u takeany of them bck?: I only got 1 and that also maybe maybe....
12. If any1 came 2 ur house on ur "lazydays" what wld u do?: make urself at home...
14. Have u ever been on ur school'strack team?: no...
15. Do u own a pair of Converse?: no...
16. Do u eat raw cookie dough?: nope but maybe will try
17. Have u ever stayed online for averylong time waiting for someone?: Heck yea
18. Is any1 on ur bad side now?: like duh....
19. What jewelery are u wearing?: my silver necklace...dun ask why
20. What's da 1st thing u do when u getonline?: log in msn n see who online
21. What are u doin tomorrow?: go skool..
22. When is da last tym u left urhouse?: like now?...i at my granny house
23. How many pairs of shoes do u own?+: alot sia
24. Whatz da last thing u ate?: mee goreng...tis morning
25. What irritates u most on the internet?:. Ads
Iceruff Yaagami Shynobi was wandering here at 9/18/2007 05:50:00 PM.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Fear What is fear? Fear is something unavoidable that someone is afraid of Even you and I have fear Its normal But why do ppl have fear? Well lets look at my example that i can relate to or are known examples: Fear of height - People who are afraid of heights normally are those who wouldnt be at a great heigth, why? Because they are afraid that they will fall andDIE Fear of snakes - ppl will naturally avoid snakes...y? Coz the bite may prove fatal and they couldDIE Fear of the Dark/Ghost: Tales and Tales are told on how ppl suffer conquences of encounter with bad ghost and those in the dark so ppl will avoid them but applying suspisions and sleep with the light...coz these may prove fatal and ppl may actuallyDIE
Now lets emphasis on the word i highlighted...why ppl afraid to die? -Coz they are not done with their life -Coz they afraid to go to hell -Coz they afraid of their relatives emotional breakdown
But lets look...all this link to one point I may not be religious strict or watsoever But ppl are afraid that they have not atone for their sins ( majority) So ppl..being watever u believe in...atone for your mistakes Yes i may not be the rite person to write this but this is fact... and hopefully i can change to Human are meant to make mistakes and they are meant to forgive and atone too... And thats the end of this story or watsoever ~Iceruff
Btw i'm writng a song and need some idea for the lyrics...just pop out any words in my taggie
Iceruff Yaagami Shynobi was wandering here at 9/16/2007 09:49:00 PM.
Friday, September 14, 2007
Ok best biology exam answer of the yr...another short post i guess
Well mid-yr half the class made this joke but tis time round i tink its better
NOW! Preliminary qn: Explain why add pineapple juice to meat b4 cooking?
Correct answer: Probably to activate the enzyme active in acidic pH Some of us answer:To add flavouring or make it tender and juicy...lol
Anywae i got to go play DAL now...i'll post some screenie when i update next time...cya!
Iceruff Yaagami Shynobi was wandering here at 9/14/2007 08:15:00 PM.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Ok guys this will probably the shortest post ever... Its 3.08am in the morning and u ppl might think that i am crazy hehe Aniwae later at 4 i take my morning breakfast b4 fasting Btw later will be bio paper 2 and science phy/chem Of the past papers, i tink i will: Maths paper 2- Fail Chem paper 3- pass English paper 1 &2 - pass Maths paper 1- pass Physic Paper 2 - pass Social Studies paper- pass? Geog paper- pass also?
Well u may say i no confident or over but then u ppl haven see the papers mah.. aniwae gtg b4 my mum wakes up i illegally 'imported' her laptop into my room so that i can play Darkness and Light Darkness and Light? It is a game similar to Dota-other than u can buy ur stuff aniwhere in the map and u can teleport home- btw heres the web www.darknessandlightsea.com gtg cya!
Iceruff Yaagami Shynobi was wandering here at 9/13/2007 03:03:00 AM.
Monday, September 10, 2007
Hi ppl...i noe i haven been updating coz o lvl is coming up and i need to chiong study so if ya want to know anything about the past few months happening plz tag me in me taggie box As u notice i had change my song to a slower one...probably make those sensitive ones cry maybe not...Song is Lip Of An Angel by Hinder
Btw i saw tis quiz at one of me frenz post and decide to join in the fun!
List out the top 5 birthday presents you wish for: 1. Bass Guitar!! 2. PSP! 3. For my sister to shut her mouth for the whole day! that would be peaceful! 4. My Family n frenz to celebrate this once a yr occasion 5. a gurl by my side...hehe
The person who tagged you is: Muhammad Firdaus Bin Mustaffa (not really tag but wat the heck..)
Your relationship with him: Lil Bro (wah sound like rapper).
Your 5 impressions of him: great lil bro, quite dominant, but get bullied, independent, hardworking for the wrong reasons.
The most memorable thing he had done for you: Alot sia...Maybe memorable by keeping my sis mouth shut when he join me putting a few layers of tape on her mouth...hehe it was great fun!!
The most memorable words that he had said to you: umm? vulgarities? Ok he accused me that his bad habit came from me "I learned from Abang wat..." (that makes my blood boil!)
If he's your lover, what he has to improve on? : umm? lover? hehe? WE R NOT GAY! "THIS IS WHAT I CALL BROTHERLY LOVE!!!"
The reason why he becomes your enemy:I bully him alot...and we fight up to the point we actually kick and punch each other....wat to do...haiz both black belt leh!!
How people around me will think of me: Quiet, shy, nerdish.....But then noisy,irritating, funny..etc etc
What do I love about myself: Creative! Inspirational for the wrong and rite reasons!
What do I hate myself: There r times that i dunno wat to do
The most ideal person I would like to be: Me? hehe
Some words for those who care for me: Thnx veri mux. I'll will not fail ya!
Pass this quiz to 10 ppl tt u wish to know how they feel about you. 1) Firdaus 2) Arfah 3) Hafiz 4) Hilal 5) Meena 6) Eda 7) Hidayu 8) Sharidah 9) Rahman 10) Fauzan
Who is 2 having relationship with: Me. relationship: My irritating sister
Is 9 a female/male: Shemale? Nah...Male
Will it be good if 1 and 10 are to get together: lol my bro and my fren? 1 is having a girl bugging him and 10 has a girlfren...
How about 3&4: Nice come to tink of it...hehe no lar... 4 prefer panda and 3 ...i dun noe...haha
2 studying about: Primary 5 stuff....maybe i could buy for her "How To Keep The Mouth Shut for Dummies" since she is so talktative...its good for her and good for me
When was the last time you'd chatted with 3: Just now...just b4 maths paper
What kind of music does 8 like? Everything other than rock...its too fast and to noisy for her
6 has any siblings? 1 lil sis
Will you woo 3? lol i'm not gay...!! he is my best buddy!
How about 7? no way!
Is 4 single? Yea...panda has been rejecting him since sec 1...but he still keep on trying Surname of 5: Dunhav
Hobby of 5: I dun noe...haven ask
3 studying at: My school, My classroom, on my right.
Have you ever developed feelings for 8? Maybe...lol she is cute,pretty, smart,charismatic and outgoing! LOLZ!!!
Where does 9 live? Veritcally opp Ten mile junction
What colour does 4 like? Hot pink?
Are 1&3 best friends? not really...my bro rarely meet my best buddy.
Does 7 like 2? nvr met.
How do you know 2? er...she's my sis . like duh....
Does 5 has pet? dun noe ler.
Iceruff Yaagami Shynobi was wandering here at 9/10/2007 01:59:00 PM.
apathetic anarchist
Name: Muhammad Asraf Bin Mustaffa
Alias: Iceruff Yaagami SHynobi
death: 8th.Octorber.1991
age: 17
school: WVPS ---> ZSS ----> RP
email: as_raf@hotmail.com
handphone: nokia5300
abode: my domain is my territory
friendster: Iceruff [as_raf@hotmail.com]
WanTs
2nd Dan on my black belt
Electric guitar
Drum Set Good O level result
1st,2nd or 3rd placing in Pesta Sukan
Get a spot in POL-ITE team
Samicks Masters (Green) or Hoyt Helix (Green and black)
A Subaru wrx sti wif all the street modification
learn how to play both guitar and drums
Team RP jacket PSP
MM in VE